I did it MYYY WWWAAAYYY!!!

For the last three days I've been lost in blogland.  Scouring the intraweb, trying desperately to find blogs that I could post on that might get a click to my page, reading endless stories by complete strangers, hoping to find some insight on how to have a "successful blog", tweaking my blog to a point that it's nose is going to fall off and have to wear a surgical mask in public, then last night was the straw....you know the one. My camel's back done been broke, y'all.

I couldn't think of a damn thing to write.  Three days in and I couldn't even come up with a post.  Shit!  What to do, what to do?  So, I desperately calmly searched, looking for something funny to write.  That was my first mistake.

Around midnight, I thought I had found it.  Yesterday was the anniversary of the death of Jean Picard.  Not the kick-ass, hunky TNG Captain, but the lesser known French astronomer.  So, here I am, thinking, "How funny would it be to compare the two and see who kicks more ass!"  But I didn't do it how I would do it.  I did it how I thought other people would like it. 

I honed in on my snarkiness skills, polishing each bullet point to a shine.  Yes, you can polish a turd.  But it still smells like shit.  I wanted it to be funny.  I wanted people to share it all over the web.  I wanted to reach a shitload o' hits! I wanted to be famous!!  I wanted to be....something I'm not. At 3 a.m., as I was putting the finishing touches on my super, fame-making post, my foot lightly bumped the computer's power cord and BLAM-O!!! power down.  MOTHER EFFING SON OF A BITCH!!!!

I went to bed.  But I didn't sleep.

Why?  Why did I care so much about what other people think?  Why did I want to be someonething I'm not?  What was the point in having a blog, if it isn't who I really am? 

I made a promise to myself. from this moment on, I will post for me.  I will be true to myself, writing about what makes me happy, sad, laugh, pissed off, etc.  Sometimes, it might make you smile, sometimes it might make you spit coffee all over your monitor, and sometimes it might just make you think.  But at the end of the day the only thing that matter is.....I DID IT MY WAY!!